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badfalconI've started documenting the process on Tumblr - because there's been some controversy in the fandom with one of the popular/prolific writers found to be using AI - and I'd already shared my planning process and my editing process, so now I'm also sharing how the bunny forms from the random place it's spawned from.
So a few weeks ago, when I was doing one of my Tennis Dads History posts - and it was a week where Simone had won the tournament he was in but I couldn't find pictures anywhere online because it was 'only' a Challenger. And I ended up lamenting to Li - at length - about the serious lack of pictures available online from Simone's SIXTEEN YEAR pro-playing career.
Right?
And Li - who is vehemently not an RPF person - turns around and says 'oh, he's an immortal and he's changed identities since then' and then apparently I have a Highlander AU. Which is fucking hilarious because I've never seen the movies, or the show, or been in the fandom. Of course, I'm aware of the fandom and I was chronically online in the mid-late 90s/early 00s so it's definitely part of my fandom cultural history/knowledge. Cue me jumping into wiki and fandom.com and rounding out the knowledge.
Then the next thing I know, I'm posting
... *sigh*
Another immortal resurfaces - one Simone thought was dead. Maybe they were once rivals, or lovers, or both.
This immortal is not as discreet. And their presence risks blowing Simone’s cover - unless he does something to stop them.
Cue: Simone beheading someone with a tennis racket behind Centre Court at 3 a.m.
( and the rest is going behind a cut because this got long ) so yeah... welcome to my brain?
Pimping and phone calls
Aug. 11th, 2025 02:04 pmmelagan
Second:
I saw an actual honest-to-god working pay phone. It has been years since I've seen one.
Where did I see it? I had a tire issue and had to take my car to the local garage. The phone was on the wall in the small customer service area. I kinda wanted to fondle it, it's been so long since I've seen a working one of these.
Doctor’s Orders: Blankets & Tennis
Aug. 10th, 2025 12:49 pmbadfalconI ended up being off work sick all week, and by Thursday I knew I wouldn’t be in a fit state to go back on Monday. So I made a doctor’s appointment. Cried at her, because… well, there’s been a lot lately. Health stuff, work stuff, and the way the airport sale was handled was just the final straw. Like I told her - I’m exhausted, and I just need a fucking break.
She agreed, and signed me off for all of next week too. I’m hoping that having permission to be off will help take the edge off the guilt. Fingers crossed.
I also started a new med on Tuesday, which has left me bloated and given me super fun indigestion. Sigh.
So I’ve spent most of the week on the couch, under a pile of blankies, where it’s safe. I’ve read a lot, written a lot, and watched a lot of tennis. I slept almost 13 hours last night. I still feel fuzzy around the edges, but it feels like it might have helped.
Main goal for next week: keep doing the same. Resting, reading, writing, watching TV. But I’d also like to leave the house a couple of times - even if it’s just to walk down to the library.
Writing goals: finish editing Darren renting Jannik out to Juanki; write the one where Darren is a killer (his player nickname was Killer, and people still call him that - even his wife); write chapter 1 of the Supernatural AU so it’s ready for USO (because that’s where it’s set).
( cut for talk of weight loss )
✨glimmers and good things - august 5th ✨
Aug. 5th, 2025 08:57 pmbadfalconBut I tried to take care of myself, even if I felt a bit hollow.
📚 I curled up with books and started gently planning out the rest of the year’s reading challenges
🧼 I spent the day focusing on soft, non-demanding self-care (blankets, quiet, no pressure)
📝 I wrote some very self-indulgent tennis dads smut - and honestly, no regrets
It wasn’t easy to find glimmers today. But they’re there. And I’m proud of myself for looking.
✨glimmers and good things - august 4th✨
Aug. 4th, 2025 09:26 pmbadfalconYou know what else is super fun?
Finding out from a report on BBC news yesterday before we were officially notified this morning.
So that was... um... delightful. Today has been a tough one, it's been very heavy and I've been struggling for most of the day. It's been tricksy to find the glimmers and good things for today:
✨ Glimmers - August 4th ✨
🧁 I didn’t overindulge, even though the office was full of tempting cakes and treats
🧠 I’m working on brainstorming a fanfic idea that actually feels fun and exciting
🧸 I curled up with a soft plushie and let it soothe some of the sharp edges
📆 July Wrap-Up + August Goals 🌻
Aug. 3rd, 2025 10:25 pmbadfalcon I love writing goal posts. I love reviewing them slightly less, because inevitably I have to admit that I did not finish the Big Thing I meant to finish. But also: I did do some really cool stuff, and my brain kicked off several brand new projects like a chaotic little goblin in a fic mine, so. Let’s talk about it.
🖋 July Writing Goals:
Finish A Field Guide to the Sinner Pack — ❌ absolutely not. It’s still sitting there, gentle and ominous and unfinished. I’m choosing to believe this is just a simmering stage.
Update:
You Wouldn’t Take My Word for It If You Knew Who Was Talking — ❌ noooope
I Had the Time of My Life Fighting Dragons With You — ❌ also no, but I did think about it a lot
The Courage of My Convictions — ✅ YES. A new chapter and a spin-off/prequel side fic. I’m counting this as a win for narrative momentum and gay priest chaos.
Wolf-Tethered — ❌ untouched, though not unloved
Maybe post a one-shot just because — ✅ I’m counting the Darren/Simone scene from the priest AU, because it came from somewhere deep and tender and needed to exist.
Also. I may have started two entire new AU series, because apparently July was the month Bob! said “yes, but what if…?”
🌿 July Life Goals:
Make a doctor’s appointment about the arthritis diagnosis — ✅ did the thing. Proud of this one.
Day trip to the RAMM + sushi — ❌ no museum trip, but we did buy most of Yo!Sushi and I did spend roughly £200 in the Lucy & Yak sale, so I have no regrets and very colourful trousers. It was a good trip
Visit Noah’s Ark Zoo Farm — ✅ lions and elephants and giraffes achieved
Reclaim one chaotic space (maybe the laundry chair) — 🌀 kind of? Started rearranging my work clothes and moved some piles around. Progress is happening in slow, meandering steps.
Come back to Dreamwidth, and stay — 🌀 back-ish! A few posts, a bit of lurking, and some genuine joy in reconnecting with long-form fandom space. Still holding this one as a soft goal.
Cook something that feels like summer — 😅 not really. But I thought about tomatoes a lot.
One proper lie-in, no guilt — ✅ absolutely achieved, 10/10 would lie in again
One evening offline with candles, music, or silence — ❌ does scrolling Tumblr with one candle lit count? No? Thought not.
🌻 August Goals: gentle momentum, storybrain chaos, and maybe some tomatoes
✨ Writing/Fandom Goals
Actually finish A Field Guide to the Sinner Pack – even if it’s just in bullet-point plan format
Update Wolf-Tethered - or at least open the doc and reread it. Or smell the forest in my head and cry about Simone.
Keep working on The Courage of My Convictions - more priest AU, more Jannik/Simone quiet intensity, more religious yearning and repressed gay disasters.
Make space for the new AUs - if my brain is going to go chaotic, might as well let it do so on purpose.
Maybe write something short and weird and self-indulgent. Just because.
Keep sharing. Even when it feels scary. Especially when it feels a little raw - that probably means it matters..
🌿 Life Goals
One genuinely slow, nothing-is-urgent weekend.
Book one fun thing for August, even if it’s tiny.
Properly reclaim one corner of chaos in the house. Doesn’t have to be perfect, just has to be better. My work clothing storage isn’t working for me right now.
Keep gently decluttering my digital spaces - Dreamwidth tags, folders, etc.
Go outside for something that’s not an errand. A walk, a sit, a stretch in the sun.
Remember: lie-ins are good, my body is not a machine, and my stories are worth telling.
Keep up the shoulder, hip, and knee physio - consistency counts more than perfection.
Aim to lose a little more weight if it feels good and manageable - but keep it soft and low-pressure.
Tell me your August hopes! Or the weird thing July gave you that you’re still thinking about. Or the AU your brain started without asking. I’ll bring the snacks, you bring the story chaos. 💛
✨ Glimmers and good things – August 3rd ✨
Aug. 3rd, 2025 09:49 pmbadfalcon🖤 My Li painted my nails for me, they're black with rainbow glitter — peak cozy gremlin vibes
⚖️ Lost 2lb this week — small steps, slow and steady, still worth celebrating
🎾 Darren spotted in Cincinnati!! After the rumours he might not be at the USO with Jannik, I am delighted — tennisdads remain undefeated
💫 Sometimes it really is the little things.
✨ Glimmers and Good Things - August 2nd ✨
Aug. 2nd, 2025 10:17 pmbadfalcon🛌 I actually slept well last night, which already felt like a win
🍝 Made a really good dinner: cheesy beef and bacon bolognese gnocchi bake with pesto garlic ciabatta (yes, it was as good as it sounds)
📖 Curled up with Love on the Brain for a while - sometimes a fluffy romance is exactly what I need
Trying to notice the moments that feel good, even when they’re small. That counts too. 💛
